JOURNAL EXCERPTS 1998
Journal entries are listed in descending order; oldest entries are on top.

October 20, 1998
I already feel like I have messed up 2 pages in this diary / journal, and I want to throw it out! freak! This is a beautiful book and I should get over it! OK. I need to make special lists...

What I did today...

1. Waited for postman until 4:30 then left for errands (missed him)
2. Inquired about some action figure stands I need for my collectibles.
3. Called Neogenesis about backorder.
4. Called Discover Card to inquire about my balance. ($668.69)
5. Organized loose paperwork.
6. Sent out product registration forms.

REFLECTION: My GOD, the other journals were so much more exciting. My Discover Card debt is now almost $8,000.

Things to accomplish before moving out...

REFLECTION: I moved into my first apartment on August 19, 1999.

1. Pay off Discover Card debt (NOT)
2. Pay off Colony Furniture (NOT)
3. Pay off Sears Card debt (NOT)
4. Pay off Comp USA debt (NOT)
5. Pay off my computer (NOT)
6. Print Century Productions Promotional material (Accomplished)
7. Pay off SVA Perkins Loan (NOT - just paid it in full in May of 2000)

REFLECTION: Goals are a good thing to have, are they not?

Christmas List
1. Mom - she wants an enclosed CD holder.
2. Dad
3. Chari & John
4. Bianca & Alexa
5. Mabelyn & Rhuven
6. Wanda
7. Me - cause I get shitty gifts from other people anyway.

Websites
1. http://www.hasbro.com
2. http://www.starwars.com
3. http://www.menonthenet.com
4. http://www.ragingzone.com
5. http://www.hunkhunter.com
6. http://www.bradcam.com
7. http://www.johncamlive.com
8. http://www.brianlive.com
9. http://www.hotguyz.com
10. http://www.rexsworld.com

REFLECTION: OK - So I'm a voyeur.

Some of the quotes in the journal...

Soon she won't object to fingers that stray under her skirt-hem and linger at her lightly knotted waistband;
when her eyes are dreamy and her breathing's harsh, send the servants away
Mallyana Vatsyayana - the Karma Sutra of Vatsyayana

Virtue has need of limits.
Charles de Secondat, Baron de Montesquieu

Some people with great virtues are disagreeable,
while others with great vices are delightful.
Duc de La Rochefoucals

The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.
Walter Bagehot

By the time you swear you're his, shivering and sighing -
and he vows his passion is infinite undying -
Lady, make note of this: One of you is lying.
Dorothy Parker

Desire and longing are the whips of GOD.
Anna Wickham

Lord, give me chastity, but not yet.
Saint Augustine

Unfortunately, that's it. I never filled this journal. I wrote about maybe 10 pages in it. The majority of it were lists; Christmas list, Things to do list, Things to get for my new apartment list, etc. etc. etc. The other journals were more exciting. I promise that on the on-line journals, I will go back to talking about sex. LOL.