Journal entries are listed in descending order; oldest entries are on the top.

09-11-02
"The world is still here. I'm still here. Both changed. Each a little more aware of the other."

I said that phrase just over a year ago, and so much has happened since. I have remained very silent on Azodnem. Partly, I think, because I've just been exceptionally busy with other more lucrative endeavors, but truthfully
my silence has been self-imposed. Too much of me went up on
these web pages. Too much of me became exposed and too
accessible. Too much foolishness. Too much honesty (Is there such
a thing?). Too much regret. Yet, here I am once more... sitting at my keyboard... typing away... taking off one more layer and exposing
another part. I feel as if I should write something about
"Today". It's everywhere. Every channel and every station is
heart-breaking. Watching Barbara Walters is pissing me
off royally. She's asking stupid and unfeeling questions...
even to the younger children. "How do you feel?", "What do
you miss most about daddy?". Heartless Wench!. How do you
think they feel? I had to turn off the televison.

I can't watch anymore of this. It's too much to see those families deal with so much pain and grief. The world has changed its face so quickly and so drastically... so terribly... joy and happiness have been stolen from so many good people this year. Watching and listening to their children dealing with the tragic and violent deaths of their fathers/mothers/parents is an awakening and heart-wrenching experience.

There is so much hate in their young hearts...

Innocence died on 9-11 too. Where do you bury that?